Goodbye. It never gets easier.

This year, I’ve said goodbye too many times. I’ve said goodbye to old friendships that are no more. I’ve said goodbye to friends that have started new post-college adventures and moved away. I’ve said goodbye permanently to a few people who deeply impacted my life and I don’t get to say hello again on this earth.

In June, I said goodbye to my grandpa. Every day I miss him. Every day it hurts… 

In August, I said goodbye to a high school friend. He was an amazing young man and left this earth much too soon.

In September, my community said goodbye to two more of our hometown kids. Graduates from the class before and after me.

And now, in March, I’ll say goodbye to my brother’s best friend. I’m still shocked. I’m so sad and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m so tired of saying goodbye. I don’t want to see my friends at another funeral. I don’t want to sit in the same church that 28 months ago we said goodbye to another friend in. Seven angels from my high school in less that 2.5 years. We’ve buried too many of our own. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through this week. I don’t know how to say goodbye.

When I think my many goodbyes this year, especially those that I was close to, I think of your goodbye and I can’t imagine the pain and hurt you must feel if the pain and hurt I feel is so great. <3

~ by Sisters By <3 on March 8, 2009.